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Mystery of Transformation

The Butterfly Chrysalis ~ During the time that a caterpillar egg is an egg, it looks nothing like a caterpillar, and the butterfly seems a far cry from the larva that precedes it. Do caterpillars recognize butterflies as their future selves? Do butterflies identify caterpillars as past relations? The most mysterious phase of this shape-shifting creature's process is the chrysalis, the jade green cocoon in which the crawling, leaf-eating caterpillar transforms into a floating, nectar-drinking butterfly.

In our human lives, we sometimes find ourselves in the chrysalis state. During those times we don't have much to offer the outside world because, whether we realize it or not, much of our energy is consumed with an inner transition. We might feel sluggish or disinterested in the outside world. We might feel impatient with ourselves, wondering why we don't have the energy we used to for our usual routines. But if we remember the chrysalis-the dark, inner sanctum that provides …

Are we working toward acceptance?

(by Shari Williams)

At the gentle urging of Michele, I am reposting a personal blog from a couple of weeks ago. I hope it generates some productive thoughts and honest feelings we can share.
Peace and love

Hi Everyone!
I have been rather slow in my blogs as of late. I guess that is because I sometimes feel like I am preaching, and that is not what I want to do! I recognize that being TG a very individual experience. How we feel, the reasons we do what we do, and even how we express our feelings are as different as we are from each other. But we all share one common thing, the need to express or incorporate the feminine side of who we are. That is the one thing that links all together.
We all go about expressing those feelings in very different ways. Also the way in which we share our feelings vary drastically. Some are able to be open and honest with the ones they love, some decide to keep it a life long secret, and many are in between. I am not here to decide, judge or to preach to …

On Golden Pondering

(By Miranda Skye)

I have thought a lot about the evolution and psychology of aging as a TG and how it affects me. Being so deep in denial and deep in the closet my whole life I had had no information of any kind about my options. I knew I wasn’t gay but I definitely knew I wasn’t normal.

I have never “binged and purged” my closet …. I just held the line so tightly that I refused to fall off. I kept to dangerous testosterone filled activities but as the years progressed it finally all came to a head.

The first time after a full make-over the feeling was so intoxicating I “knew” things would never be the same. But being a perfectionist has given me doubts about whether I am just “stuck” on perfecting my feminine persona or is my brain really “wired” as a woman. The thing I know for sure is that I am miserable if I don’t “self talk” my way each day into a Buddhist style of acceptance.

If I were ever to separate from my wife and young child (cannot imagine ever abandoning my young daughter) ……

Balancing Male and Female Energies

(by Michele Angelique) The following article, "Balancing Male and Female Energies", is exerpted from, a popular New Age source. The message is delivered by Germane, a group consciousness energy, through clairvoyant Lyssa Royal. It provides a powerful framework for harmonization of our male and female selves through meditation and creative visualization. The approach presented applies to all gender orientations.

~ Offered in Sisterhood, Love & Light by Michele Angelique,

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Balancing Male and Female Energies

Germane: All right, greetings to all of you. This is Germane. Pleasure to be with you today. Are you here? All right. Just making sure we went to the right dimension.

Now, you've read the subject for tonight - balancing the male and female energies. We're going to give you a little analogy to start off with. Imagine the batteries you have that run your tape recorders. One end is negative; one end is positive. Now, it doesn'…

An interesting revelation.

(by Shari Williams)
As you may have guessed by now, I tend to jump into new adventures with both feet, and GenderEvolve is no exception. I had a very interesting experience the other day that at first seemed frustrating but later made me feel very special and blessed.
I was out finishing up some Christmas shopping a couple weeks ago. For once I really felt good about how I looked and was very pleased with my overall appearance as I walked out the door of my home. Sadly it was not destined to last. After hitting a few of the local stores I walked into Kohls’s to look for some costume jewelry for my wife. After walking around for a few minutes I was taken aback. I noticed (as I tend to do) 8-10 beautiful middle aged women shopping throughout the store. The all looked fabulous, very beautiful, but very stylish without looking like they were even trying, just their natural beauty shining through. In short order I began to feel not quite up to par. I finished my shopping and during my drive …


(by Shari Williams)
I am new here, and I hope my first post is not too “deep”. It is about honesty. All of the following thoughts come from personal experience and are only my personal views on TG life.
Honesty is the cornerstone of any good relationship. I am sure most of us first think of relationships with our loved ones. Honesty is a necessary and vital ingredient to any relationship with a loved one. But how about honesty with ourselves? In the never ending search to understand and live with my TG feelings, my wife has been adamant about me understanding and being honest with myself (as well as her) about what my TG feelings mean to me and how they interact with my life. I have come to the following conclusion.
By being totally honest with myself about the nature and extent of my TG feelings, I have been able to be equally honest with others. This self honesty and by default honesty with others has had a most positive and welcome side effect………understanding. Luckily the people in my…